lost a friend

I will have to say losing a friend is hard. Knowing that they are gone forever is hard to believe. I miss her so much and its only been a day. I know its all my fault but i wish i could do something about it rewind the clock and go to where i screwed up. What kept me from going insane was my loving brother he went with me and walk down to the gas station to grab a pop and we walk and talked all the way home about the storys that are in our head. I hate to say this but i saw this coming it was gonna happen sooner or later but i didn't think it would be this soon :-/ i guess ill survive...I hope today will be a good day got a lot planned gonna try my hardest to keep my mind off of this its really hard because the person i lost was such a great friend but i guess thats over so i guess ill just have to get over it. and Open a new chapter to my life.

confused and stressful

Why do i feel like my heart is being ripped out. i dont know i just dont want to lose a friendship a couple friends to be exact. I feel sorta lonely and my head is starting to spin. I dont know what to do in my life my life is so confusing i dont know what to do. I dont know who to believe who to listening. *sigh* lifes confusing. i guess seeing them talking again for while is bringing back what they use to do or what ive heard of...I haven't been my self for a long while i dont know what is wrong with me whats going on. Who do i believe who do i trust i dont know anymore. I dont know anything anymore and well tomorrow is the first day of April the month i was born in i hope this month is better then the last couple months but im not going to get my hopes up not anymore.

Quesadillas

Cheese Quesadillas 

 Ingredients

1 small tomato 

3 medium green Onions with tops

6 flour tortillas (8 to 10 inches)

2 cups of shredded colby or chedder cheese (8oz)

2 tablespoon chopped green chiles (from 4.5-oz can)

Chopped fresh cilantro or parsley(if desired)

Directions

• heat the Oven to 350degrees. Chop Tomato. peel and chop the green onions.
• Place the Tortillas on a clean counter or on waxed paper. sprinkle 1/3 cup of the cheese evenly over half on each tortillas. top cheese with tomato, onions, chiles and cilantro, dividing ingredients so each tortillas has an equal amount.
• fold each Tortillas  in half over filling, and place  on an ungreased cookie sheet.
• bake about 5 min. or just until cheese is melted. cut each Quesadilla  into 3 wedge, beginning cuts fromthe center of the folded side

My thoughts

  when Sherry gave me this assignment it looked easy and it kinda seemed easy this wasn't for the bible study class so i only had to make 6 Quesadilla. one for each of us. everyone thought it was really good so did i. When we went and got nick my mom told me that im making it when we get home for my brothers and dad. they loved it (i had to make seconds) haha it was very good :) so i hope you try making it because it is reeeaaaallllyyy good

Brownies

Triple Fudge Brownies

 

Ingredients

1 package (3.9 ounces) instant chocolate pudding mix

1 Package (18-1/4 ounces) chocolate cake mix

2 cups (12 ounces) semisweet chocolate chips

Confectioner's sugar

vanilla ice cream optional

Directions

• prepare pudding according to package directions. Whisk in dry cake mix. stir in chocolate chips
• pour into greased 15in. x 10in. x1in. baking pan. bake at 350degrees for 30-35 min. or until the top  springs back when lightly touched.
• Dust with confectioner's suger. Serve with Ice cream desired.

This was the first thing i made in my Home EC. class it didn't seem that hard to make. When we took it out of the Oven. sherry (my teacher) Mom and I tried it and really loved it. well around 7pm is bible study on wed. and we had it out side and i got a lot of complements on how good it was. We brought some home to my brothers and my dad and they were gone in seconds.

Wonder

Have you ever wonder what would have happen if something didn't/did happen. I do everyday. like what would have happen if i never was born, what would have happen if i had stayed with my ex Bf, What would have happened if i told my boyfriend i was single sooner. so much wondering is that bad or is that good. I dont know so much wondering in my head so much wondering so much. i wonder if there is a person out there that wonders more then i do. hm more wondering ahhhh

Randomness

I write this becuz its morning and im bored. whats on my mind a whole lot of stuff like how much i love my boyfriend nick he is so amazing. What else well im thinking about how much fun im going to have when i go shopping with my mum and my boyfriend this afternoon. im also thinking about what i should do with my life my boyfriend wants to be a truck driver and i dont know what i want to be yet. well for a while i wanted to be a writer i still do but im not that good well i am and i aint depends on what im writing.

"I didn't hear you leave, i wonder why im still here,
and i dont want to move a thing, it might change my memory, oh i am
what i am, i do what i want, but i cant hide, and i wont go, i wont sleep,
i cant breathe, until you're resting here with me"-Tifa

Favorite quote lol random. My life is crazy well for awhile it was and it still kinda is. Im a short writer i dont know why but i am. sometimes i can speak my mind but then i can go on for ages. People look at me like im crazy and i just stare back thinking im crazy so what people like crazy weird girls. OMG this is not one topic. Hope you guys dont get bored of this im just starting with blogs. Well i use to write alot then i use to draw and i still do lol but not has much i as i use to. I use to play games to but that died down quickly. Now i cant sit down and play a game for a long time. Im most likely listening to music and texting well not right now becuz the person i talk to everyday is at school. Well i think i wrote anoth so

Good morning world treat me well

The only Reason

The only reason i smile is because i know you care

The only reason i frown is because your not there

The only reason i dance is because your coming

The only reason I'm alive is because your loving

The only reason i breath is because u give me life

The only reason im still a live is because you live